Our "Yesterday"

Yesterday I woke up

Today I didn't, I lay in the warm silence awaiting my future,

I am not myself,not like I was yesterday,

Yesterday I was surrounded by friendship and love,

Today I am alone, solemnly on a journey to an unknown world,

Yesterday the door closed, and I opened a new one,

Yesterday I didn't know what was coming,

But that was yesterday.

Yesterday, life felt so simple.

The glistening image of ourselves in the mirror meant nothing more than a way to tell us apart.

Living each day in the present, not thinking about tomorrow, or what comes after.

Waking up and questioning the day, not the week, not the month, not the future...

Not bothering to think about why, only doing as you pleased.

No unanswered questions of the world, as adults held all the answers, knowing what to do every second of every day.

Seeds planted into our heads about life, and what comes after.

Being taught by the corrupt and greedy, not willing to change their point of view from that of the public eye.

The world was a smaller place, revolving around us because we lived life.

We had no actual view of life, and we couldn't have cared less because if we thought about the past or future, it would distract from today.

But today's not today anymore, it's yesterday.

Life isn't simple.

We aren't the innocent child that believed the world was peaceful and joyous, gradually morphing into people who realize life isn't perfect, who look back on their childhood and know;

Yesterday is gone, and it's never coming back.

Yesterday I walked to school, the freezing winds, 
Frosty against my cotton pants.
Yesterday I worked on my iceberg project,
Drawing, typing, printer running.

Yesterday my aunty perished, then tears rolling
Down my mother's cheeks -- all because of one
Simple phone call.

Yesterday I charged my iPod, looking at the
Computer screen. Gazing out at the sun beating 
Down on the pavement, it slowly falling as 
Nighttime approached.

Yesterday I slept in

Yesterday I woke up at 10:00

Yesterday I saw a movie

Yesterday I felt like I was going to die of school

Yesterday I had so much fun

Yesterday I could have fun waking up

Yesterday I could play hockey for winning and losing

Yesterday I felt nothing was a worry

Yesterday I felt like everything was so easy

Yesterday I rode my bike for the first time

Yesterday I help someone ride their bike for the first time

Today life is a hard

There’s HOMEWORK and PROJECTS

Today is an old boring Monday

And then tomorrow is a Tuesday.

Yesterday was fun, like laughing and cheers.

Yesterday was full of excitement.

Yesterday was amazing and magical and anything could happen.

Yesterday there was no such thing as popularity, everyone was surrounded by friends.

Big, small, tall, short, everyone was happy.

Yesterday I was friends with everyone and there were no such things as rivalry or dislike.

Now, today, I’m not so sure.

Today, friends have moved away, friends have found new friends, and there is rivalry and dislike.

Today is still full of adventure, but it’s also full of sorrow.

Today is loss and tomorrow is gain.

An endless circle of life and death.

Tomorrow I could find love.

Tomorrow I could find hate.

Tomorrow, today, yesterday, what do they all mean?

It doesn’t matter now, for it is only today.

Forget the past, don’t worry for the future, and just live today, full of love, hatred and death.

But how can I forget?

Thousands of worries, thousands of regrets.

Is this really what life is about?

Stress and conflict?

Am I really just waiting for the day when I can’t take it anymore?

Maybe it will be tomorrow.

Yesterday I was a little kid

I wanted nothing to do with broccoli

I still hate broccoli

Yesterday l loved strawberries

I still love strawberries

Yesterday I wanted to be a rock star

Now I say “god no”

Yesterday I loved SpongeBob

Everybody still loves SpongeBob, deep down you know it, no matter how bloody annoying he is, you still love it.

Yesterday I enjoyed teletubbies

Now I say what in the world are those things

Yesterday I loved pokemon

Nobody ever gets tired of pokemon, everybody has that urge, “I’m am going to buy a 300 dollar Ds and a 60 dollar pokemon game and play that stupid thing”.

I like to think that yesterday I was a nice kid

I was not…

Yesterday I was in preschool

Yesterday I loved playmobil.

The sets that take 10 seconds to build.

Yesterday I went to sleep at 6:00 and woke up at 12:00 at night Calling for mommy because I had

A bad dream.

Yesterday I was scared of the Zamboni driver because I thought he was mean and he would run over me.

Yesterday I was scared of spiders

The kings of the eight legged creepy crawly’s

Yesterday I loved pokemon

The game where I CHOOSE YOU!

Today I am in sixth grade with my best friends

Today instead of playmobil I like lego.

Today I go to bed at 8:30 (weekends-9:30) and wake up at 7:15 (Weekends-9:00-10:00)

Today I am scared of drunk people because they go crazy and grab you And swear up a storm.

The game I love now is either call of duty or NHL 14. My life has changed a lot.

Yesterday I was a kindergartener

Yesterday I loved the smell of veggies the sweet smell of carrots.

Yesterday I loved playmobil

It brought out my creativity.

Yesterday I fell asleep at 5.30pm when I was hyper and woke up at 6.00 and felt drowsy

Yesterday I did not care about money because I did not know what was coming up in my life

Yesterday I had a fear of spiders because every time I looked at spiders I think it would hurt me

Yesterday I had fear in my life of the upcoming things in life.

Today I’m a sixth grader with my good friends

My love of veggies became a hatred of them

Instead of playmobil I’m insanely crazy for kidrobot and also a collector

Today I go to sleep at 9.00 pm and wake up at 5.30 am

Now I really care about money because it can decide if I get a job or not

Today I’m not afraid of the pesky spiders because I figured out that spiders are just friendly

Today I’m very confident of life.

My life has changed a lot.

Yesterday I punched my friend in the arm
And she shouted out in pain.
Yesterday I had my FSA exam,
I went back home and ate some cake.
After my cake I went to Brendan's house and did some homework.
Yesterday I played some NBA on xbox 360,
After that I went to soccer, I came home and watched the Oilers vs the 
Canucks and the Oilers won 4-2. It felt awesome.
Yesterday after the hockey game I had a 
Shower and then watched some TV. 
After watching some TV I went to bed.

Yesterday the wait at the clinic was short,
I watched an old man with a turban and 3 fingers taped together.
I heard languages I couldn't understand. 
Yesterday I grew up fast. 
I watched candles on a chocolate cake and watched my self blow them out
And the wax dripping down the colourful candles. 
After I watched my mom slice the cake for me to eat. 
It was so good
It tasted like being a teenager.

Yesterday I was a toddler

Didn’t think of money

And how much thing were

I always wanted toys

No matter how expensive they were

I would stay close to my parent

I wouldn’t try different food

Like broccoli, brussel sprouts and olives

I would want to eat candy all day

And I didn’t care how unhealthy thing were

And fight with my sister

I would pull, punch, argue and bite

But at night I would sneak into her bed

And hug her and she would hug me back

But today changed

I’m taller and stronger

I care about money

And the price of the object

I don’t want many toys

And my sister and I are buddies

Try different food but although I was pikey

I would care about my health

And what I eat

So that my yesterday and today

But I can’t wait for tomorrow

Yesterday I never thought about my future, never looking ahead to school.

Never thinking about anything but fun.

Friends and girls were the people I liked, most boys were people I didn’t.

I knew what foods were good and which were bad.

I thought that the morning was just more time to play.

Yesterday, money was worth nothing.

I didn’t have a care in the world.

Yesterday, all of my friends were right in front of me.

Today, I worry constantly about what I want to be.

Now thinking about homework and TV.

Today boys and girls can call themselves my friends. I think about how I look, and worry about my friends.

Popularity matters.

Today I ate a fruit that was a dragon.

Today people have new meanings.

Today friends have gone and left my world.

Today, a million worries rest on my shoulders.

Today sleeping in means so much more.

Yesterday I was in kindergarten

Yesterday I loved eating sweet oranges

Yesterday I played with the mud and dirt

Yesterday I hated spiders and other bugs but I always loved ants

Yesterday I always fell asleep and almost never woke up

Yesterday I always made mini forts and always had to clean them up

Yesterday I hid when my dad came back from work and scared him

Yesterday I loved playing outside

Yesterday I always came over to my friend’s house and had play dates

Yesterday I faked my sleep so that my parents would carry me to my bed

Today I still love sweet oranges

Today I don’t play in the mud and dirt

Today I love spiders and other bugs

Today I still love playing outside

Today I still come over to my friend’s house

Yesterday I would want to be princess

Wearing my mom’s clothing and high heels

And wearing crowns and jewelry

Yesterday I always thought things were free

Demanding for that most expensive toy

Yesterday I would watch Dora all day

Wanting to go on a big adventure everyday

So I did roaming the halls jumping from couch to couch

Rolling on the floor and fighting the bad guy who would be my dad

Yesterday I wouldn’t have a care in the world

Trying to catch bees and stealing candy from Save On Foods

Things have changed

Today I walk home everyday

Take my Ipod and text my friends while watching tv

Today I am taller so tall I can reach the high shelf

Today I pay for my own things

Today I read thicker books

Yesterday I was I little baby

Yesterday I was sleeping in my crib playing with my stuffed animal

Yesterday I was eating my food and throwing it around the house

Yesterday I was forced to take a bath

Yesterday I was playing outside with my friends

Yesterday I was in my tree fort playing with my army men

Yesterday my gramma got a dog so I had someone to play with

Yesterday I feel asleep in my pillow fort

Yesterday I had help with my homework

Yesterday I was playing road hockey with my dad

Yesterday I pretended to fall asleep so my parents can carry inside

Yesterday I won my baseball tournament

Today I’m playing hockey

Today I’m in grade 6

Today I’m getting good grades

Today my gramma still has her dog.

Yesterday I went outside to see the creepy mushrooms of December

Yesterday I saw roaring trains through the car window as we reach one hundred.

Yesterday I sneaked down stairs from my sleepy room to watch some show from Australia as my grandma peels the apple’s skin off.

Yesterday I watched the meteor showers from the sofa

As I wish for something.

Yesterday I packed up my lunch bag for the first time and

I looked at all the giants at this prison of math.

Yesterday I heard the first “Did you know that” from Bill Nye

Yesterday I went to this odd, green place to kick a ball around into a bunch of patterns made from rope

Yesterday I wrote my name correctly for the first time

Yesterday I shoved down all my cake just so I could have seconds

Yesterday I did the traditional

“Shove the cupcake all over your face” at school

(Where my mum couldn’t get mad at me).

Yesterday I played with the skeleton head LEGO and the jetpack

Yesterday I sang “down by the bay” with my daycare lady

Yesterday I jumped on the trampoline and did Superman across it

Yesterday I wrote my ABC’s

Faster than Cooper under Mme. Charron’s desk.

Yesterday I jumped up from my desk to get the cool LEGO first

Yesterday I played at the McDonald’s Knee Burn Center

Yesterday I went to Kapitain Kids fun and got a HUGE burn on my back from the big slide thing.

Yesterday some friends were lost, 
Yesterday I had my best friends by my side
At the roughest of times.

Yesterday I was afraid of monsters 
Under my bed.

Yesterday I had a rough day,
But I knew that my parents were 
Right there next to me.

Yesterday I was tiny then I was tall.

Today I’m average.

I didn’t know my problems.

Today I know what I can and can’t do.

I didn’t know about myself as much as my parents did.

I drank from spoons instead a baby bottles.

Today I drink from cups.

Yesterday I couldn’t drink tea or coffee.

Today I like to drink tea or iced tea.

All I did was play, eat and sleep.

Today I have to find time to play.

Yesterday I woke up with no worries about

What to do.

Today I need to see if I have homework.

Yesterday I didn’t care about how much money I had.

Today every cent counts.

Yesterday I had no sorrows.

Life was full of happiness.

Yesterday I had no idea about life and death.

Yesterday I thought my great-grandmother had become a star in the sky and that it was cool.

Today I know what that really means.

Yesterday I didn’t know about the world around me.

Yesterday I thought everyone was nice.

Today I know about good and evil.

Yesterday I could trust everyone.

Today I have to find out if I could trust that person.

Yesterday everyone was my friend.

Today I know who I like and dislike.

I know who my friends are.

Yesterday I had no reason to cry.

Yesterday I didn’t know how to cry.

Yesterday I had my family and friends around me.

Today everyone seems to drifting away.

Yesterday I didn’t know why I had to go to school.

Yesterday I didn’t know why we had to learn.

I didn’t know why I had to get ready for the future.

Yesterday I thought everything would happen by itself. 

Yesterday I learned the alphabet.
Yesterday clocks ticked faster as it struck twelve,
Yesterday even when time was fast, it seemed slow.
Yesterday I learned to ride a bike,
Yesterday I learned to rollerblade,
Yesterday I had my eleventh birthday party.

Yesterday every time I went to the dentist

I got the little dino sticky notes and played Spy.

Yesterday I got scared at Crash Crawly’s because there was scary words

Yesterday I won a mini laffy taffy at Chucky Cheese

Yesterday I went to BCFFC and on the way there we listened to to the

Same songs every 2 hours.

Yesterday I felt so small and eager to grow up

 So safe inside the warmth of my parents arms

 I used to think anything was possible, nothing could bring me down

 I had no worries, doubts, or cares

 Yesterday I could wake up not caring about anything

 I knew what I didn’t like and hardly tried any new stuff

 I felt so free but, that was yesterday

Today is completely different

I care about a lot of different things

Like my appearance, and clothes

Unlike yesterday, when anything that didn’t smell bad was good enough for me

Today I know who my friends are

And who absolutely despises me

I have many worries

And lots of doubts

I get scared quite easily

And don’t enjoy dark basements

I try new stuff which I often enjoy

I am slowly growing up and life is getting harder

I sometimes wish that I could go back to yesterday